Jealousy is a disease of competition, measurement and minding other peoples business. When I say it is a disease I mean it can literally make you feel without ease. Any dis ease that we have starts within the mind and is a thief of our peace. Jealousy is very much at the root of disturbing peace of mind because it is tied to the color green, the color of the heart chakra. It is Shakespeare who labeled jealousy “the green eyed monster.”
Jealousy is a manifestation of the heart which is ruled by the color green. The word green itself is showing us that it is about energy. The word energ is the same exact letters as the word green. Our main instrument for projecting energy is the heart. Not only due to the electric magnetic frequencies coming from it but because the heart of anything is the center of it. The center is where the seed of creation is. The heart or the center is the darkness which projects its light (focus) and that light is reflected back to itself. The word center shows us this. The word center is also the word resent meaning to send again.The etymology of resent says “ French ressentir “feel pain, regret,” from Old French resentir “feel again, feel in turn”. This suggest that whatever feelings you focus on or make the center of your attention is only a reflection of yourself. Whatever energy you project gets resent back to you. This is all happening on such a subtle and subconscious level that most of us don’t notice because we are blinded by external images. What is happening is that we are spending most of our energy focused on what another person is doing. You can feel it in your body. You are annoyed. You are upset. You are angry. You are looking at another person and feeling like they do not deserve something they are getting. You even may be secretly wishing you were getting that particular thing. You feel like you are threatened with loosing something that that person currently gives you. Scarcity takes over. Fear creeps in. Your heart starts to pound. Your palms start to sweat. Your body starts to get hot. You start to imagine things that are not happening. Now you are upset at only the potential of something happening that has not happened. You are creating that scenario of fear of loss right there within your own mind. You are creating it in the now and it is not even happening….but it feels like it is. You are creating all of it. This is all happening because you are doing something that you can easily fix. You are minding someone else’s business more than your own. You have made them your center, when they are not. You are the center of everything you perceive and feel. Remember, that what you put out comes back to you. Therefore, you are always the center. The only reason you are having all this dis ease & uncomfortableness is because your own heart is jealous and aches for your attention! Pay attention to yourself.
You have a contract with your own heart to make your self the center at all times. You are the “I am” and once you get away from knowing that you have broken the first commandment. “Love the Lord thy God with all your heart (earth), mind (moon) & soul (sun).” The sun, moon and earth are the main parts of the universe which create this illusion we live in called time. Time tells on you. Ahhhh yes…. time tells on what you care most about. What you spend your time doing and thinking about is a direct indication of what you love. If you spend more time focusing on what other people are doing and thinking then when are you thinking about you? How much do you love you? How often do you go inside yourself and ask yourself why do I do this and that versus being upset about what someone else is doing? Why are you concerned about how much attention someone else is getting? Why do you care about how much money (which can equate to attention) someone else is creating? Jesus shut Peter up when he asked about what someone else was doing. John 21:21-22 Peter seeing him saith to Jesus, Lord, and what shall this man do? Jesus saith unto him, If I will that he tarry till I come, what is that to thee? follow thou me. In other words, whatever I have this man do, what does that have to do with you? You follow me. Jesus pretty much told Peter to mind his own business and worry about yourself.
Your contract with God, your inner self and your “I am” is to love yourself with ALL your time. The Lord thy God is a jealous God and will put you in jail if you do not mind your business and tend to yourself. Mind your business meaning that we should pay more attention to our own thoughts and feelings than we do others. The Lord jails us for breaking the contract. It is universal law to jail us (jealous) for worshiping images that appear externally. The Bible tells us repeatedly not to break our contract(covenant) with the “I am”. That means that we are not to worship anything external or we will get lost in it and forget about ourselves. We will get thrown in the prison of ourselves (our cells) becoming a slave to the external. This is to our own detriment and we bring it on our self.
Deut 5:8-10 Thou shalt not make thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the waters beneath the earth: Thou shalt not bow down thyself unto them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me, And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me and keep my commandments.
Minding other peoples business is such a huge distraction. Yet we rarely will admit to doing this. “Who me? Jealous! Never! I’m shocked that you would even consider that I would be jealous” is what we say. Lies! Lies! And more lies! We lie to ourselves. We ALL do this! No one is exempt! No! not one. Because it is human nature to run from a truth that hurts. So we lie about why we give so much attention to a particular thing. Sometimes we are not intentionally lying. We really are simply unaware of our self but pain is the reminder. Who likes pain?! Yet pain is our greatest teacher! Let us thank pain and adversity for growth. Pain is there to let us know that we have violated the contract within our own heart. So if we learn to face pain we will get better in dealing with jealousy, envy, insecurity, low self esteem and all those nasty little creatures that keep us from reaching our greatest “I am”. If not, then jealousy grows like the ivy plant and it will take over an entire house if you allow it. Envy is the Ivy plant. The word Envy is also the word vine. Vines will take over your temple(house) and grow wildly if you do not get a hold of it. You have to get to the root where all truth lives and cut it off. The English Ivy penetrates small cracks in the bricks and start to cause damage to the structure of the temple. It is one of the most invasive vines out of all plants that grow along walls. The vines can take over the house so much that it actually covers the bricks and you would never know that the vines are creeping into the crevices between the bricks slowly causing damage, causing dis ease. These vines also harbor and hide a lot insects that can destroy wood. This is what envy and jealous can do, cover a temple and destroy it.
Some people say envy and jealousy are 2 different things but that is not what the etymology says. Envy “late 13c., from Old French envie “envy, jealousy, rivalry”. It also says “Similar formations in Avestan nipashnaka “envious,” also “look at”. Also in the bible the words envious and jealous are interchangeable. To be jealous of something requires that you look at something outside of yourself. It is in our nature to “look at” the external world as if it is disconnected from our self. That is part of the design of the universe, which is to be separate but together simultaneously. However, when we look to compete, compare, measure against, and to lust after then we start to develop jealousy. If you find yourself comparing and measuring against someone else’s then it is possible you are jealous of them. On the flip side of this…. if you find yourself bothered by someone who seems to be measuring themselves above you then it is possible that you are insecure with yourself. Only you can make yourself feel beneath someone else. Either way, how you feel about any situation is created by you. When you rival with someone it means you are competing. Competition is a masculine type of energy and only happens on the physical side of things. There can only be competition among what is seen, never unseen. Competition happens in the womb and is apart of how we manifested in flesh therefore it is a necessary energy for us to strive to do better than our previous self. However, on the non-physical side of things everything is black, dark, equal and balanced. What is there to compete with if all things are equal and the same? The feminine does not need to compete. It knows that there is only darkness and all things that appear to be in external light are only a reflection of self….. so again what is there to compete with? It is hard for us to swallow and digest this concept but if we become honest with our self by admitting our jealousy we can identify the envy of the Ivy and cut it at the root.
Do you remember the movie The Mask with Jim Carry? That movie was all about heart. The heart is dual. Duality is showing us the words dual light, or two lights. There is external light and internal light. There were two mask in the movie. The one worn by Jim Carry represents the desire to be your true authentic self and attract that same authentic love back. The one worn by the character known as Dorian represent the aspect of love which produces possessiveness, jealousy and competition. Both mask are green, but these are two different energies of green. One focuses on internal and the other external. It is simple to rid jealous but because of this external illusion we live in it can be difficult. I’ll tell you what this little girl told me. She changed my life forever. “You drive! Worry about yourself!”. Click the link below.